Semi-close to a breakdown
I am teetering (sp?) on the edge of sanity right now. I hate to whine and complain but sometimes...we just need to get it out!!!
OK, I have 3 more days of school until Spring Break. No, I am not going anywhere...although I need a vacation more than anything. But of course, I don't think that I will ever afford a vacation ever again (I will get back to that in just a bit). I have conferences on Wednesday night from 3-9 and let me tell you, that makes for a long day (after you have taught all day). Needless to say, conferences fly by pretty quickly and aren't bad at all! Just all of the stress preparing for them is what gets me.
Cheerleading clinics and tryouts are this week. Tonight was the first night of clinics where the girls learned a cheer, chant, and dance for their Thursday tryout. One of my girls from last year dislocated her elbow doing a backhandspring...not a pretty sight! I seriously thought I was going to faint. After calling her parents, 911, and trying to keep her calm, I had to continue with the other 70 girls. She is still in the hospital and getting x-rays right now :(
We bought the house and have inspections this Friday. Everything about the house and how much money everything costs is making me sick. Seriously...how much does it cost for people to come in and check out my house? AHHH! And I am just so frustrated because I am not dying about this house...I am not beaming at every moment and head over heels. But I think this is normal for me! I didn't get excited about buying my car, I didn't have a "this is the one" moment with my wedding dress. I think that I just take everything in stride...along with this house. I feel like I should be SO happy about it but I am just too overwhelmed right now.
Actually, my masters class is going just fine. A lot of papers to write but I can handle it!
Oh yeah, and I am getting married too! Haven't planned or thought about it in over 2 weeks! Hopefully, Mike and I don't kill each other before the wedding...this house stuff is causing some disagreements.
I just need to make it through Thursday and then I am off work for a week! I don't like posts without pictures so here are pictures of something that makes me REALLY happy!!! This is my parents cockapoo, Zoe (the love of my life).
Thanks for reading my vent...I will be ok...I hope!
OMG I totally forgot you have a cockapoo, too. Her hair is so much more curly....and she is totally squeezable.
Sorry you are stressed. Buying a home and getting married are pretty damn stressful [I can attest to one of the two at least]. I can't imagine the amounts of money this whole thing costs but just know I'd totally freak out, too. I'm freaking out FOR you if that helps:)
Ah, I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. I hope things get better for you soon! I hear the weather is supposed to be nice this week, if that helps?
Hang in there Lauren!
And closing costs really are the worst part of the whole home-buying process. As if the two hundred thousand you pay for the house isn't enough...let's just tack on another three thousand to close. Grrr! I cried - as in sobbed - at my closing, if it makes you fee any better. ;)
Breathe! It's completely OK to not have those "moments" about everything :) Hopefully everything will keep going smoothly - just hang in there and it'll all be done soon! (Think about it - 6 months from now, you'll be married and in a new home, and it will be a new school year!)
I felt very much the same way when we bought our house. I loved the house but all the stress from the money we were putting out, going to school, and planning a wedding was almost too much. As move day got closer I got a little more excited about moving into our first house and making it our own.