3 months
Yesterday, my son turned 3 months old and tomorrow is the first day of school. That means it is Ethan's first day at the babysitter's house and my first "official" day as a working mom. I can't help but ask myself if this is the right decision. I know it is but now that the time has come, doubt is setting in.
The past 3 months have been the most incredible of my life. There have been low moments (many of them) but the way that my heart and life have changed is simply amazing. Ethan has amazed me every day of the past 13 1/2 weeks. I am so blessed to have him in my life and to be able to watch him learn and grow.
Having a child changes everything. It changes the way I look at my own life...in every aspect. It changes all of my relationships...with my friends, my family, and my husband. It changes my outlook on everything in life. I have to remind myself to slow down, not sweat the small stuff, and soak up every moment with my son. Every squeal under his playmat, every sigh while he sleeps, and even every meltdown in my arms. My baby boy is growing up right before my eyes and I know that his phases won't last forever.
The first quarter of Ethan's first year has flown by in a flash. I hope that being back to work will make me cherish every moment together even more than I have. I love you, Ethan.
